Friday, October 8, 2010

The desert.

Recently it has been one of those 'seasons' to be quite honest. A season of dryness. Hunger of the spiritual kind. And wanting of fulfillment by God. The truth is... Its a hard and long time to go through. A time of not feeling like you are hearing much from God. A time of not having so much enthusiasm for his works! A time of crying and wondering. Even a time of doubting.

During these seasons I almost feel numb. Most of these days I don't want to get out of bed. There's no point in getting out of bed. Anyone who knows me knows this isnt normal for me. I generally am very positive and love getting up because I realize God has a plan for that day. But in these seasons I'm just there.

But! The great news is I am out of that season. All I had to do was pray for strength, and joy, and thirst! God answered that prayer! Thank you Jesus!

" Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,for they will be filled." Matthew 5:6.


With love, Tessa

Saturday, October 2, 2010

God's got a hold of me.

My dad doesn't have a job anymore. My mom isn't alive anymore. I've never stayed in one place for to long. I've lost many good friendships.

Something on my heart right now is simply just, Change. Honestly, change scares the mess out of me. I tend to grow attached to people and places. But when those things are ripped out of my life. It hurts. I want to cling to those people and things with all that I am. But when God says it's time to let go I must. Sometimes I just don't want to. This is where I fall short in my relationship with God. Why can't I just understand that God has everything under control and let Him have all of it!? This frustrates me so stinking much! I am constantly reminding myself that God has a plan and HE HAS GOT A HOLD OF ME!

So my prayer is that I will fully trust in God's plan and understand I am in His hands. No matter where He is taking me. No matter who He is removing me from. No matter what kind of hurricane life throws at me. He is here. With me.

**Please join me in prayer as my dad is searching for a job. Pray the He will go where God is guiding. (:**

Love much,
Tessa <3